Friday was a day…an exhausting, emotional roller coaster of a day.
The day started out with me getting up 7:30am to be ready to go to my cardiologist appointment with my new doctor. I was feeling nervous but it most likely would be no different than any of the other hundreds of appointments I have had in my life.
I listened to my favorite playlist on the way to calm my nerves. When I arrived I was only a little nervous. I had my Echocardiogram done and then had my appointment with my cardiologist and her NP (nurse practitioner).
I really like them both! I feel like the transition will be easier than I was expecting!
Anyway the news that I received was mostly good but she did say that I have a narrowing passageway between my right ventricle and atrium. What that means is that oxygen rich blood and blood low in oxygen mix which strains the heart and as a result it starts to expand. She said the leakage may be mild but she will not know until after my heart MRI in May.
Depending on the amount of leakage I may have to have another heart cath which I am not too excited about.
I am trying to not allow myself to worry about it too much because I really don’t know if it is that bad. But the thing that keeps playing in my brain is that it may not be bad now but that doesn’t mean it can’t or won’t get bad enough to the point of having to get the procedure later.
I had a heart cath five or six years ago for the same reason I believe and it obviously helped but it was not my favorite thing. And I usually don’t wake up from anesthesia very well so that always kind of makes me nervous.
I haven’t usually wanted to admit how badly these appointments and heart things affect me but I am admitting it now. I went home and cried then I was scheduled to work and was unable to find someone to cover so I went in but told my manager I was not doing well and she let me go home. I then spent the rest of that night and most of Saturday in my bed. I did however get myself up yesterday afternoon, took a shower and went shopping with my Christmas money to cheer myself up. And I talked to one of my friends about what all was going on in my head. It felt good to talk to someone. I do have my family but sometimes I feel as though they get tired of hearing about these things. Anyway, shopping and talking to a friend was very helpful.
In other news I went to a new health food store that opened about forty minutes from me and although it is a bit more expensive (as expected) I think I will go there for certain things like dairy alternatives and a few other odds and ends. They have a lot more vegan options than the stores I usually go to.
Another thing I did to cheer myself up and give myself something to look forward too, I booked a ticket to the art museum in Grand Rapids! It is for about too weeks from now so I am very much looking forward to going! It is something that I had on my list of things I wanted to do this year. I may share that list as a separate post…maybe! We will see:) I kind of like the idea of keeping it to myself and just sharing the things as I accomplish them or experience them!
I hope the beginning of your 2024 is going smoothly. Mine as been a bit turbulent but nothing I can’t handle. I know good things are coming for all of us!!
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