I am lonely

How early is too early to adopt another animal after your elderly animal has passed away?

As some of you may have read in my last post, August Was A Month, my cat passed away at the beginning of September. She was 14 years old and had lived a long comfortable life. I am glad that she was able to live so long and be with me for a good portion of my life. But now I am finding that I am lonely without her here. We use to spend nights in my room with the lamp on and the heater or fan on cuddled on my bed as I wrote or journaled or watched a movie. She would spend hours with me sleeping on my legs or at the foot of my bed. She even spent her last few days not leaving my room. We had a very deep bond, one that I will forever be grateful for. But now that I am the one left here without her I am having a hard time doing those same things.

Here I sit on my bed typing this post with my salt lamp on and my heater warming my room but I am all alone. I have spent almost every night since she passed crying because I know I will never see her again or experience those peaceful nights. The companionship that a pet brings is unlike any other. It may sound cheesy but if you know you know. I want to be ready for another cat but deep down I feel as though I know it is too soon. But then my loneliness creeps up and makes me think that it is not.

When I think of getting another cat I feel a mixture of emotions. Mainly happiness and fear. Fear of the future though most likely far off that I will have to face another loss. But that is what life is about right? Putting your feelings on the line to love and be loved knowing that someday it may be taken away. With all the loss in my life in recent years it makes me that much more weary of opening up my heart to anyone, human or otherwise.