I Feared I Would Become a Mummy

I have mentioned having anxiety as an adult but let me tell you my anxiety was through the roof at all times when I was a child. I would worry about the most random and impossible things. Recently as I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep I was reminded of one such anxious thought I had for an embarrassingly significant amount of time.

Let me set the scene, I was maybe 9 or 10 and I had just gotten into bed after staying up late to watch a documentary with my parents about ancient Egypt. You know mummies and such. Well, I remembered that mummies arms were always crossed over their chest, to be honest I don’t remember why they did that, anyway for some reason my brain decided to translate that into something much more morbid and quite terrifying for anyone let alone a child.

My brain decided to tell me that if I fell asleep on my back with my arms crossed over my chest just like the mummies I had seen on T.V I would pass away in my sleep.

I will give you a minute to be shocked…and maybe laugh. It is okay I have laughed about it many times since remembering.

I genuinely thought that if I LAID like a mummy that I would die. I can not tell you where that thought or rather fear came from. All I can tell you is that my brain is and always has been very imaginative and unfortunately that fact has not always worked in my favor.

I have never, until now, told anyone about this…because let’s face it this is straight up embarrassing. I do feel bad for little anxious Kaylie because I remember the genuine fear I felt as I lay there in my little twin size bed as my sister lay fast asleep across the room.

I have dealt with and continue to deal with many forms of anxiety. But this takes the cake for the most unrealistic and absurd.

If you have had or currently have any anxious thoughts that you may feel embarrassed about please let this be a comfort that they most likely are not as embarrassing as you think.

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