A Letter to Myself

Dear Kaylie,

You are enough, You by yourself, are enough. You do not need anyone else to prove your worth. Not to yourself or others. You are enough by yourself. You are beautiful and powerful. You are divine. You will find who you are supposed to be. You will find your self worth. You will love your body. You will face things that are terrifying, you will overcome many things that feel, at the time, like they could kill you. You will discover things about yourself that you never could have imagined. You will go through a time of extreme guilt and shame but just know that it will not last forever. You will grow and push yourself. You will learn to love and appreciate your body, mind, heart and soul. You will learn the beautiful peace that naturally flows from within you. You will learn to see and fall in love with all the beauty of the world and humans around you. You will experience fear about showing your true self to family and friends but just know you can take your time. You decided who knows what and when. You will experience depression and anxiety. You will want to die. You will feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. You will spend many nights crying into your pillow with only the darkness to comfort you. You will feel like screaming at the top of your lungs. You will feel too weak to move forward.

But you are not weak! You are stronger than many will ever truly know. You don’t want to die. You just know where you want to be and get frustrated and exhausted waiting and fighting for it to be your reality. You are smart, strong, brave, intuitive, thoughtful, beautiful, powerful, peaceful, kind and empathetic. You truly will be everything you dream of and much much more.

Stay strong baby! Stay true to yourself. I love you! It will get better! You will be free! You are worthy of great and beautiful things!

Love, Yourself

Have you ever written a letter to yourself? Maybe to offer encouragement or consolation? I do it quite often. The first letter I wrote to myself was maybe a year ago. It was a time in my life I was doing pretty good. I was healing inside and out. I was processing things I didn’t know I had bottled up inside. I don’t know where that letter went…maybe I should find it!

This letter is one that I wrote in April of this year. I am not sure exactly what I was feeling that prompted me to write but I know I was struggling with loving myself and everything that makes up my existence. I wrote it as a reminder that I am exactly who I am supposed to be and that I do not need to force myself to change any part of me to fit what others want or think should be true of me. I also wrote it to the younger version of me, telling her that it will all be okay. That those things that she will go through are not going to be strong enough to kill her. That she will be and is strong enough to take them all head on and win!

Growing up I had little to no faith in myself. I didn’t see worth in who I was as a person. A lot of that has to do with religious trauma, which is something I am constantly processing and healing from. I have come so far though, and wanted my younger self and current self to know that and know that it can just get better.

So, maybe take some time to write a letter to yourself, current, younger or older. They could all use it. Tell yourself all the things you want to hear or all the things you need to hear. Offer encouragement or praise or even console yourself on things that have hurt you wether that be hurt from yourself or others.

Someday when you are cleaning out your drawers or reducing your massive collection of notebooks you will find the letter and know that you always have your own back and maybe it will be just what you need to hear in what ever era of your life you are in. We always know the right things to say to bring ourselves comfort.