I started this year in the living room with my sister watching the Time Square countdown on T.V. I was feeling optimistic. This year was…is my year. Everything is going to start working out for me. I am going to achieve all my goals and all of my dreams are going to come true. I try to stay positive most of the time. Sometimes it is not so easy and I am not so positive, but I always find my way back. This last year, 2022 kicked my ass. I thought 2020 was bad. I guess in some aspects it was worse but 2022 wins for making me loose hope. I am not saying that I have lost it completely but last year really made it harder for me to hold onto it.
Anyway, as I was saying I started this year happy, optimistic and hopeful. Then on January 1st I lost it again. I felt so hopeless and was so painfully aware of my circumstances that I just lost it. I stayed in my room all day and cried. I just want…need something to work out for me. I am so tired of trying and trying and trying and getting nothing in return. The universe is acting like I am not doing anything. Like I am not trudging forward even though I am being battered by all the elements. I was so lost and sad and depressed and hopeless that first day, it made me so angry. I was angry that I had started this year on a not so positive note. I decided on the 2nd that I would write down all of my manifestations and affirmations for this year. I refuse to let this year end the same way last year did. I refuse to let this year end with me in the same situation I am in right now.
My Grandma gave me a little notebook for Christmas to write down everything that I want in life. So, I have been. Every time I think of something I want or where I want my life to go I write it down as specifically as possible. I keep that notebook in my bag at all times. I feel like having it with me will make the manifestations even stronger. And it allows me to write things down as soon as I think of them.
Great things are going to happen this year. This year I am going to be proud of myself and how far I have come. This year I refuse to be sad. This year I refuse to give up.
If your 2022 was anything like mine, I am sorry. These last few years have been hard…but it will get better. Yeah, I know it is annoying hearing that all the time. We have to believe it…we have to hold out hope that there are better, greater things coming for us. We will have the best year. We will not give up.
Visualize your dream life and write it down. Think about it all the time. Imagine you are already living it.
There is a specific affirmation I heard online and I have decided to use it this year. I am going to share it with you too because if it can work for them it can work for us too.
“I am so lucky, everything works out for me.”
I don’t know the names of the people that made the video but they have helped me so much. I have that sliver of hope back. And I am planning on holding on for dear life.
“I am so lucky, everything works out for me.”
Living it Up Halfheartedly 