Hope…sometimes it is hard to hold onto. When everything in your life feels like it is crumbling around you it is the last thing you have but when it starts to fade you feel truly lost. I have been struggling with having hope this year. Everything or at least it felt like everything I had at the beginning of this year was taken away from me. Part of that was because of the decisions that I made and honestly I have fought the consistent feelings of regret ever since. Deep down I know that I made the correct decisions for myself but the path that those decisions have pushed me to was not the most ideal. I lost hope. I lost the hope that things would get better. I lost the hope that my life would improve. Until just last week. I decided I was tired of feeling this way. I was craving something to make me feel better. I decided I would write out some affirmation sticky notes and put them up around my room. And like they always do, they helped. I feel much better. They are helping me manifest and envision my dream life and put into perspective the things I have to do to get there. I am a very visual person so writing them out and having them where I can see and read them on a regular bases helps me more then keeping it all in my brain. I think they are working already! I have another interview tomorrow for a job that I was really hoping to get! Another thing about having the interview tomorrow on 12/20/22 that feels like a good sign, is that for the last week or so I have felt that that specific date was going to bring me something good! I can’t really explain how or why I felt that way I just did. I guess I was right!
Yesterday I was trying to grasp onto the few threads of hope I felt I had left. Today I feel like I am getting somewhere.
Living it Up Halfheartedly 