It’s Okay

Today was an especially bad day at work. Actually this whole week was bad. I came home tonight and sat in my car sobbing. All week I have felt like I was being attacked by those around me for things I didn’t even have control over. We have all been under enormous stress the last few weeks and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I try not to feel sorry for myself or focus on the bad or difficult things that happen to me…honestly because I am afraid people will think that I am looking for sympathy. In a way I am…but don’t we all crave that from time to time. My Mom called me because I told my Dad I was not okay. We spoke for a while and she reassured me that it is okay to take a break if you need it. You are what is important. Not a job. Not a project. If it is getting in the way of you taking care of yourself wether it be physically, mentally or spiritually it is MORE than okay to stop, take a step back and rest. You deserve a break. Life is hard. It sucks a lot of the time. It is something that most of the time we can not control but what we can control is our self care. Trust me I know at times it may feel like you can not control that because you have obligations. But like my Mom said, how can you fulfill those obligations if you are not physically or mentally well enough to do so.

Calling out from work has always been a hard thing for me to do. I always feel guilty even though I always have a reason. I always thought it was because I had a good work ethic but I am starting to think it is because I am a people pleaser. I always tell others to put themselves first. But when it comes to me…I guess I make an exception. I am slowly learning that sometimes it is okay to put myself first. In fact sometimes it is exactly what I should do. Remember that you too are important. Your mental, physical, and spiritual health are all equally important. So take a break from time to time. Slow down and breath. Do some yoga or go for a walk. Take care of yourself. It’s okay.