August Was A Month

August was a month. A long, painful, stressful, and difficult month. I started out with high expectations of getting my life back on track and finding myself again. Neither of which happened. I had many goals that did not end up being accomplished. But it is okay. Sometimes life tells us when we need a break. Sometimes life pushes us down and demands something else from us that does not take into consideration our own personal plans and goals. I am not going to make any promises of my posting schedule because life is unpredictable at the moment. I am battling a slump and doing anything and everything I can to keep myself afloat.

This past Saturday I lost my wonderful cat of fourteen years. She was my best friend, my writing partner and my biggest comfort. Not having her around anymore is extremely painful and I am trying to deal with the loss. It hits me every once in a while and I feel my throat closing and tears welling in my eyes. I try to let myself feel all the emotions one is supposed to feel and not guilt myself for it. I still talk to her and tell her how much I love her and hope she is somewhere beautiful and comfortable. Over the last few years I have had a lot of loss in my life, wether it be beloved family members passing or otherwise. I honestly don’t know if I can take anymore. But I guess I have no choice in the matter. What the Universe decides is what I get. I will do my best to find the positive in this situation while simultaneously allowing myself to grieve as much as I need to and whenever I need to.

Thank you to all those that read these posts. I hope your days are filled with things that bring you joy and comfort. As we head into the fall and winter months, especially in the midwest it is important to find those things that we can hold onto as the seasonal depression kicks in. If that applies to you. I sincerely hope it does not…but if it does…you are not alone. We will get through this once again.